I am not, But I know I AM

So I'm finally getting around to reading the book by Louie Giglio, I am not, But I know I AM. From what I have read, it is a amazing book. If you have not read it, please do so. You can't go wrong.

I have been wanting to read this for some time. But never got around too. And with me, watching a 4 month old for a couple hours a day, I needed something to do when she was sleeping. So I picked up this book.

I can't seem to get enough of this book. How this book... our lives... is about God and HIS story. Not about us, in any way. Here is just a sample of what grab my attention, and has been playing in my mind for a while.

Louie, is talking about when Moses see God at the firy bush and they have a converstaion. God tells Moses to say you have been talking to I AM... Louie says this.

In English the name I AM translates into the verb to be. or simply be. Therefore, God's name is Be. I AM= I BE. Not great grammer. I know, but powerful theology. God knew it was imperative for Moses to know who He was- that He was I AM. I Am is the present tense, active form of the verb to be. As God's name, it declares that He is unchanging, constant, unedning, always present, always God.

God was telling Moses:
I AM the center of everything
I AM running the show
I AM the same every day, forever
I AM the owner of everything
I AM the Lord
I AM the Creator and Sustainer of life
I AM the Savior.
I AM more than enough
I AM inexhaustible and immeasurable
I AM God

Our name is I am not:
I am not running anything
I am not the head of anything
I am not in charge of anything
I am not the maker
I am not the savior
I am not holding it all togther
I am not all-knowing
I am not God.

when you get right down to it, all of our names are I am not.
AND GOD'S NAME IS STILL I AM.

Like I said earlier, if you have not read this book yet, you should. It is amazing. I am getting so much out of it, and it is daily a wake-up call. Wake-Up call on knowing that I AM- loves me enough to call me daughter.

Watching Movies with Boys

With this blog, you will be able to see inside of me. Get a feel for what the night and what God has shown me- it is amazing. Sit back and get comfy (for i'm not sure how long this will take me)

Tonight was so much fun. I truley have not had that much fun in a really really long time. It started out by going to Bucca Di Beppo (spell check, anyone) for dinner. A bunch of 7:10 people where there. It was so much fun to hang out with them and laugh and to be back in that evoriment again. People were just laughing and eating some amazing Italian food, and not worring about drama.

After dinner we all went to see a movie- this is where the break through comes from.....

We went to see Because I said So. Which, I highly warn against seeing with boys. It is not a movie that one should take a boy to see. Girls can see it, but not so much boys. But since, I'm the writing this blog. I would like to add something to the movie. I did enjoy the movie, it was really funny, and yes, there was a few sence that should of not been put in. But what really caught my eye and made me smile was that both the mom and one of the daughters were Chefs. Yup, one was a Pastry Chef, while the other one owned her own Catering company. It was so cool to see that, and to see the cakes that they made. Well, enough boring details...

Back to what I was saying. We went to see the movie, and for some odd reason, all most all of the boys didn't want to sit in the same row with us girls. So they sat behind us, and it was so funny to hear some of their comments and remarks throught out the movie. And then to joke with them afterwards about it, well lets just say that toped the night.

But what really got me thinking was on the way home. Like I said before, I haven't had that much fun hanging out with Believers in a really long time. They were not worried about drama, or dealing with what ever issue that they have not dealted with, and bringing it up again. They were not worried about maybe that girl may like that boy, so they shouldb't sit together due to the fact that "He may be leading her on". and so on.

This group was more worried about how the act as Christians, as God fearing people. Who love the Lord with ALL THE HEART, AND ALL THE STRENGTHS. They are truley saved human-beings and it showns. I had a blast, cause I was dealing with Highschool drama. There was no, getting made over spilled popcorn, or something dumb. There was no getting mad at all. These people truley loved each other, they loved each other as Christ loves the Church.

I did hang out with this group, a while ago. I really have no idea what made me stop, or what it was that I didn't hang out with them anymore. But I LONG so badly to have that with my friends. Maybe, I need to hang out with this group more often. Yes, I know that I'm in school and I don't have the time, but once I get out and my schedule frees up some. I would love to hang out with them. to get to know the girls in that group, to get to kow the guys.

Speaking of guys - It breaks my heart to see and to hear some of the guys who fall away from the Church. Most of the time, it was all a game to them and there were never saved. It is sometimes hard to see that, until after the fact. But the Church, is so bless to have some amazing Godly, young guys. Guys who are taking the training center, and who are doing it to grow more deeply with God. who want to lead a church, or just to know what God is calling of them. Those are the guys, I look up to and admire. My heart longs for the world to get a view of these amazing Godly guys. For the world to see that, and to long for leadership in the homes, in the work place, and at Church.

To end this blog, God showed me, that sometimes, to have amazing friends, you need to be that person. I hope I am, a Godly women who other women can see and say that is a Godly women. To see that I'm not consumed with trying to make a guy like me, or not like me. Or not consumed with dating- but more worried about what God has for me. I can't wait to get done with school, to rebuild some old friends. to make new ones, and to hopefully improve the ones I allready have.

Thoughts, and Chocolate Pound Cake

It has been a while since my last blog. So I thought that I would update you on life.

I guess the biggest thing is I know longer work for the pool company. They need someone to work full time, and I can't give them full time. With me being in school full time it is just too hard. So we said good-bye and went my way...

After we said our good-byes (well, it was more or less good-byes over text messaging). I really didn't know what to do. For I start my intership in April, which leaves us only 3 months (and by the way, 3 months till my birthday). Should I try to find a job, or should I just not work and enjoy this time off until April. Or maybe, I will work at a bakery and have that count toward my intership. So many options, my head was spinning- and my heart was saying stay home. Well, God had other plans for me. He drop a job in my lap that will work out. I will be babysitting for a family that has a 4 month old girl. THey own their own Dr. office, and need someone to watch their new baby for a couple of hours. Perfect for my schedule. It is from 9-12 Mon- Thur.

That is really the only thing that has happen to me. I'm still - well kind of put off thinking about my intership for a bit. I guess, I 'm not sure of where I want to go. This is something I need to be more on my knees about.

As I finish eating my chocolate pound cake, that we made tonight in class. I will wrap up this blog for now.